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wow

When I make it sound like I think your a bad guy, you come right back every time with “show me how i’ve ever been bad to you”. It’s not about before, it’s all about how you treat me NOW. And right now…

You said I’m looking at the negative side, I’m trying to think of the positive things, and all the positives I’m thinking of are things you’ve done in the PAST. What have you done in the present to show me? Just anything to show your hurting just as much as I am. You’ve shown me, you are doing pretty damn fine. I’m pretty much dying inside with every thought about you whether its a good thought or bad thought.

Whenever someone says your name, I flinch.

Ahhhh what are you trying to do to me?!

I have to post something hella negative for you to show who knows if its real kind of emotions!

You’ve been all happy and acting as if a load has just come off you. Posting stuff that aren’t directed at me, but obviously to others. You know guys don’t do that shit, so yeah most likely directed to some others.

When you meant “not breaking up”, did you mean you still want me as a plan A, but you wanna find a plan B just in case?

Your talking to girls you know I never wanted you talking to. And you talked to them FIRST. But I still wanted to find reasons why I should fight. I almost found one. One of the many songs we had was favorited. I started thinking to myself, maybe he still is thinking about me. I loved the singing video of that song. She was an alright singer. Wanted to see the comments. Woah, but there’s just one “ayy cutesy in the black tho, holllla ;] ahah”

Its hella easy for you huh?

And then I post something negative directed at you, and that’s when you try showing me these things?

OKAY YES I may be overreacting to SOME of these things. But just the things you said to me already just killed me. I’m not the kind to be sad, I replace sadness with anger. And right now I’m pissed the fck off.

I want to fight, but not for the guy who seems to already be gone.

Try to convince me I’m wrong please